Happy New Year everyone! I hope that y’all had a great Christmas and New Years, and are ready for another year. 2020 was a tough year world wide, but I feel like I had a decent year in spite of everything. I was able to get a vacation in to Hawaii before the world shut down. I was able to continue working with no lay off because my job is work from home. I met a lady friend who I have been dating a little bit over a month now. I have been in close contact twice with someone who tested positive for Covid, but I tested negative both times! And on the last day of 2020, I interviewed for a new job, was offered the job ten minutes after I interviewed, and today I officially put in my two weeks at my current company and accepted this new job. So all in all, 2020 was a lot less rough on me, and I’m thankful for that.
As we move into 2021, my girlfriend Hillary encouraged me to pick a word for the year. This is something that she does, and I liked the idea and decided to choose one myself. My word of the year is leap. Leap is a word that symbolizes both trust and risk.
When I hear the word leap, I think of the kid who is standing on the diving board, ready to jump into the arms of their father. There is this nervous anticipation in the pit of his stomach. Attempting to do something he has never done before. He is taking a chance. A risk. Yet, he does not do this alone. He is jumping into the water, but with the expectation that his father is there to catch him.
Leap symbolizes an action. It is an action of trust. An action of hope. An action of belief. An action of faith. Leaping is difficult because it requires one to take a risk. For the kid to conquer his fear of drowning, he must leave the comfort of the diving board. He must leave the comfort of control. He must venture out into the unknown, with both the fear of failure, and thrill of newness equally present. He does not know what will happen, but he expects that his father will be there to catch them.
I believe this is what the Lord is calling me to this year. To leap. To step out. To try new things. To go beyond my comfort zone. To not hole myself up, but to take a trusting chance, a dare that the thing beyond my fears, and frustrations, is greater than the frustrations and fear themselves. The Lord wants me to let go of my crutches that I have held onto for so long, and he wants me to leap. To know that I can take chances, and risks, because I can trust Him, because He is good. That even when I fail in my leaping, that I would know that my world won’t crumble, because my foundation and my trust in Him is solid, and He’s got me.
For so long, I have been so scared to leap. So scared to let go of my safety nets because what if I risked and it didn’t work out. I had many stipulations for the when, why’s, how, what’s of each situation before I leaped and took a chance. This year I want things to be different. I don’t want to live in fear, and I don’t want to pigeon hole myself to things that I know I can do. I want to step out onto the edges of life, and I want to experience new things. I want to have joy again in my life. I want to have adventure again. I want to be at peace.
So what does this look like practically? Well, it looks like joining an exercise group. It means learning to grill and cook some things. Eating healthier, saving money. Doing the hard things. It means continuing to see where my relationship with Hillary goes. It means doing things outside the box this year to find healing and wholeness. It means doing things I don’t want to do. Things that scare me, like going to the doctor and to the dentist. Those are just a few areas of how I want to leap this year.
I have already begun putting my word into action early on. My first opportunity of 2021 to leap came in the form of a new staffing job opportunity. I am excited, but nervous at the same time, since this is my first new job in the last three years, and I am moving into an entirely new field of work. I know though that this is the right opportunity for me, and that I have the skills to do this job well.
So here we go 2021. I’m ready to take some risks and chances. I’m ready to dare again, trusting that the Lord has me in whatever I endeavor to do.